yesterday
worked. came home and tried to cool down when miss came wandering in lol. we were going to the thrift stores out by new baltimore and decided to leave asap so we could avoid traffic. headed out and had a great time besides the fact that it was POURING while we were in the last one and on the way home. stopped at l. george's for some fries to see if the rain/traffic would slow down.

THE REST OF THIS IS BITCHING. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT, STOP READING NOW. got a call from ma'am. ksjdnhgskjdfsd. miss dropped me off and i got in trouble because i didn't do the dishes before work. i am so sick of this. it's not even about the dishes. i get treated like i'm 12, not 18. i'm pretty sure i know how to manage my own time and had planned on being home to do the dishes before she got home, but that doesn't matter. i just get bitched at and told that i'm a worthless piece of shit. i hate arguing with them, it's even worse than getting in trouble for nothing. no one listens to each other. it's ridiculous. i got yelled at for the pillows not being on the couch, yet when my dad walked in, my mom got matt in trouble for not cleaning the living room like she told him to. how are we both going to get in trouble when only one of us was asked to do it? see it doesn't even make sense. i understand that i didn't do the dishes, but it's not like i didn't intend on doing them. anyways so i finally get the chance to tell my mother that ryan and i are going to the movies, because everytime i talked to her earlier in the day she had to go before i thought of it, and she takes "mom ryan is going to be here in 20 minutes we're going to the movies" as "when ryan gets here i'm leaving, fuck the dishes" so then i get in trouble because apparently when ryan got there i was planning on leaving and not finishing what i started. when have i ever done that? i just don't get it. i was so frustrated last night. and the biggest issue to me was my mom telling my dad that i woke her up the night before at 3 am typing excepttttt i didn't touch the computer after ryan left at 2 and was definitely sleeping by 230. so she lied and now i can't have anyone, not even ryan over after 11 which is complete bullshit especially because it was based on a lie. i cried the whole way to the movies and basically ruined ryan's night because i was so frustrated. i honestly feel like i'm 12 and i don't know why they treat me like this. i go out of my way to follow their rules yet i was sick on saturday and it was thrown in my face. i was told that i ruined everyone else's day. are you kidding me? i just don't know what to do. i put off dishes for a few hours, was coming home with the intention of asking my mom if i could treat her to crab leg dinner one night and i got in trouble like they picked me up from the police station or something. i just don't understand. and now i just got off the phone with my mom and well no, she hung up on me. she asked me what my plans were. i don't have any plans. why? because they don't want me out late when we all have to work so my friends come over here yet thats not possible anymore. "so you're not going to do anything all day" are you kidding? i went out yesterday during the day and what did that do? god forbid matt eats something during the day and leaves a dish in the sink that i don't get to before she gets home. so i just got yelled at for not doing the dishes all weekend. you CANNOT yell at someone for not doing something just because you took it upon yourself to do it yourself. i hate this. i hate being down on myself. i'm done. nothing i do pleases them. i don't know why i try.

but besides all that....i did enjoy myself for a few hours last night. ryan and i went to see wedding crashers which is awesome, you should see it. and then he came back to my house until 11. sadfhsakdhfs. and i talked to JOE a few times before going to bed since i had nothing else to do. thanks for making my night better babe.